3 night's

It's been the third night this week I've dreamt about her.. wondering when it will finally end... I mean it's not like I hate her or anything it's the complete opposite.. it's just I don't think it will work.. we've tried sooo many time and most of the times it's been my fault so it's me who's giving up, breaking my promises and letting her down.. she deserves better than me and I stand behind that... I'm just a kid finishing high school... no job... living off my dad's SS money... I stay confused and let my anger and emotions control my decisions... no one can fix me so don't try... I just pray she finds that special someone that is nothing like me and can make her life beautiful... as far as these dreams i'll deal with them deal with the guilt of letting her go but maybe for the best... eh i dont know what's for the best anymore.. I'm Sorry...