I happened again. It comes from nowhere. This terrifying so called "dream".. Starting the day with beautiful word and love, yet ending in the hospital.. This "dream" haunts me more than anyone truly knows and is like a thorn in my side that I just can't pull out. We look at each other gentle kiss and we're off.. to work I take her.. In deep conversation laughing holding her hand. Loving every moment in life. Feeling like nothing will bring me down.. How wrong I was.. 60 in a sudden 45 cross road.. I look to go straight into the sunset.. seeing this shadow come closer to the cross road.. my foot off the gas other foot on the clutch.. Rolling into oblivion. Black out... Hear the word "shit" come from my mouth not knowing what will happen..
Choking, Blurry vision, calling her name, I hear nothing.. all senses stunned.. door doesn't open.. panic crawls it's way into my head, but I won't let it take over.. Anger already conquered my emotions I punch the window... no use my fist will break before the window does.. Then I hear her soft words make the anger vanish and worry sets in I look to her so I can help.. She's sitting in her seat half-dazed.. she can't move.. I must get this smoke out of the car and get her fresh air.. my door still stuck back is blocked.. only option her door.. I climb over, careful not to touch her falling out the other-side of the car. I stand up and I hits me my shoulder is broke. I feel the pain rush to it yet don't let it touch my emotions. I have to stand strong... for her...
Help is on the way I kneel down next to her seat afraid to move her. Praying. I look into her eyes, see the pain.. the pain is to unbearable to watch.. but she will not leave my sight.. I watch over her like an angel from Heaven, yet I'm not. I do everything in my power to help comfort her. gently kiss her on the forehead and tell her I love her.. Help arrives, loading her on the stretcher I walk with her... off to the hospital..
Longest ride in my pathetic life.. She is the one who is in good faith... I'm silent looking at her not letting anything get my attention from her.. It's my fault.. I did this.. something I carry with me to this day.. putting the one I love in pain and hurt.. unforgivable... unforgettable.. I'm Sorry...
I wake in tears.. praying this would stop.. it won't.. only to get worse.. I look at my phone, it's her.. "Good Morning"
God bro. I honestly would not have thought that you would be having dreams about that still. I hope it gets better man. Really do. If I ever pray, I'll pray for you. I love you man.
ReplyDeleteGod bro. I honestly would not have thought that you would be having dreams about that still. I hope it gets better man. Really do. If I ever pray, I'll pray for you. I love you man.
ReplyDeleteYeah. they never let up I'll go a couple days maybe weeks but it'll come back. Thank ya bro.
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