Reaching For the Stars

Lyrics from a Blue October song,

"I'll be reaching for the stars with you (honey). Who cares, no one else believes (Yes). so I, set fire to everyone around But you. I told you I told you we'd do it."   

A slap in the face telling me how much she means to me. Trying to run from the past and embrace the future.. Reaching for her when she's so close yet I'm so far away. Running on a road that never ends. Regretting ever saying those things to her and wondering where we would be if I hadn't of.. tears running down her face she cry's and wants to be embrace with the one she truly loves yet only finding out this in recent times.. taking it slow so we don't rush into another mistake, but only finding ourself miserable and alone. Wishing there was a way a path that was simpler than the one we're on.. Parents = issues. Us together = happiness. Sitting in still water wondering what my next move is. Anger controls 60% of me Love 40% how can this be when less then a year ago love conquered me.. Trusting once easy now impossible. Doubts feel my head that fuels my anger. What brings me out of this darkness is the my biggest weakness.. Tink doesn't know what she means to me or how much I care and love her and I fear she never will.. Needing her isn't easy with my family in the way, Yet my fault they even are in the picture.. I want to be rebellious from them just like my normal self yet I sit at a cross road trying to pick the path that takes me to my future goals..  Reaching for the stars hoping I someday grab them and succeed in life. Day-dreaming this story over and over not getting anywhere with my life. no job. no money. no hope.. Guess time will only tell where my life goes from here. All I know is I pray she's in it.